It's my second night at Sivananda Ashram in Neyyar Dam, Kerala. There are cockroaches the size of my thumb here. My mosquito net has holes in it. I have to wake up at 5:20am every morning. I'm freaking hungry ALL THE TIME, even straight after I stuffed my face at brunch or dinner. I love it here. Despite all the "negative" things of the place, I find it strangely calming in a way. I'm hoping I will be able to use this experience to help me overcome my fear of cockroaches and maybe one day we can live in harmony... (If my master plan of eliminating all cockroaches from planet earth doesn't succeed that is...) I will become stronger and fitter (and thinner) by the time I leave. I will learn to appreciate my food even more. MAYBE I will learn to wake up early even as a daily routine in life! One thing I'm struggling with is my attachment to the outside world. The fact that I have been unable to turn off my cellphone just yet shows my lack of separation from outside. There are too many people in my mind everyday, those I'm worried about, those I miss, those I care for, those I love... That will be my goal for the week, find that courage to switch off my phone and feel that it's okay that I can't be contacted, and maybe find some answers to other questions along the way! P.S. I love my room mate and the yoga thus far is been very gentle, but I think the intimidating part starts tomorrow..........
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